Life really is a roller coaster.... isn't it?

Ok, so this is venting, not blogging. It's easier that sitting here crying or getting mad. I thought I was on the right road to feeling better. I decided to listen to the doctor for once and get the injection as he suggested. So, I go to work like a crazy person and work for a few hours in chaos. I then settle myself thanks to a phone call and prayer from Dan the Preacher Man. All is well... wrong!

I happened to notice while waiting for my blood work that the doctor's office has accidentally checked the box off for me to have an EKG. The nurse said we probably wouldn't have to do it since I had Cardiac Clearance and tons of test when I was pregnant with Jason. Well, my blood work showed I am quite anemic, so the doctor wanted the EKG done just in case. I think the box was checked on purpose... I believe it was God's way of saying I need to take care of an issue because the EKG was not good. It wasn't horrible, but if I had been getting general anesthesia, my procedure would have been canceled.

So, I am quite upset by this. It is now effecting other plans that Tim and I had... like trying for another baby. Not to mention that something could be wrong with my heart. I know my planning doesn't matter.... I know GIGATTATTGIG, but I want a break! I AM TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED, but I am so stressed out right now. Praying... praying... praying for peace and health. Needed to vent, but not to Tim. He can't handle this all right now either. I kind of just want to scream... maybe just cry... but for now I'll just pray. He is the great physician and the originator of all plans. I know if my focus stays on Him it will all work out...